Free

I'm finally getting back in the habit of blogging! With school and just life in general being crazy the last month, I haven't had time to do much of anything. Anywho, I'm finally done with the semester!! This semester was a weird mix of classes. I had my Child and Family Studies classes such as Family Life Education, Theories of Family Development, and Family Financial Management, then I had Neuroscience and also Christian Ethics for my religion minor. I absolutely LOVED my Child and Family classes. I love the professors, the content, and the students in my class. Neuroscience? Not so much. That class was so incredibly frustrating. It was team taught so there were 4 professors, 1 of which was not a very nice man. Lastly, Christian ethics was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. I have to admit, by the end of the semester, I had learned a lot and I loved going to the class and discussing Christian Ethics. However, I figured out that I like an answer to things. When I ask a question, I don't want to hear what Aquinas would say about it and then what Bonhoeffer would say about it; I want to know an answer. Anyways, looking back on the semester, it was a great one. It was hard and frustrating and I definitely had a meltdown or two, but we live and learn right?

As most of you know, my grandpa has been in the hospital for quite some time now. He fell and broke three ribs and then things kept piling up and getting worse. BUT, he's doing so much better now and God willing, he'll be home by Christmas Eve. During this time, I've seen a lot of things. I've seen how much a church family can support someone in their time of need. I've seen how God answers prayers. I've seen how a hospital staff can become a family to the patient. I've seen how my grandfather simply adores my grandmother. By this point, I think everyone in the hospital knows the story of how they met, fell in love and got married. Cutest thing ever.

Also over the past week I've seen people change. I've seen fear struck into American citizens and it makes me so so so sad. The shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary makes my heart heavy. I pray for the families that lost children and parents. I pray for the elected officials. I pray for the children that survived the shooting and lastly, I pray for our country. Even though I do realize how devastating this event was and how big of an impact it has had on us, I do not live in fear. I do not fear my fellow Americans. I do not fear crowded public places. And lastly, I do not fear our government. Hebrews 13:6 states. "So that we may boldly say, the Lord is my helper and I will not fear what man shall do unto me." My hope and trust is in Christ and no one else. 

Proven Wrong

Alright guys, I'm blogging for the first time in a month but don't get too excited. Seeing as I have a final in 2 hours, this blog is going to be quite short. However, there's just something I wanna say. 

I'm not proud of it, but I'm one of those people who doesn't like to be wrong. I'll admit that I'm wrong, but I don't like it. However, in this situation, I'm wrong and I couldn't be more happy about it. 

Whenever I'm stressed and upset about things, I tend for forget just how big God is. Call it lack of faith, but when things are looking no bueno and I don't have control over it, I get really frustrated. Over the past month or so, I kept getting discouraged with certain things. My grades aren't where I would like them to be, my grandpa has been in the hospital for over a month now, and some other things have happened that have been so nerve racking and frustrating. A little over 12 hours ago, I was panicking to the point of tears about my grades and finals, my grandpa was having a lot of problems in the hospital, and I was just tired of it. Now, I look back over the past 12 hours and I can see how God provides for and takes care of His children. I did way better than I could've ever imagined on my test, my grandpa has gotten WAY better and I'm proven wrong. I forget how big my God is. I forget how He can provide for us and how He can hold us in His arms and take care of things that we can't take care of. 

There's no possible way to have control over everything in our lives, so why not hand that control over to a God that can provide?