The past few months, it has been super evident that God is
working on my heart. He's been pulling out every insecurity that I have and
forcing me to work them out. Every unhealthy habit that I have is being
completely squashed. It's not fun, it's not easy, and it's sure as heck not a
fast process. But it's a necessary one.
In Mark 8:22-26, we see Jesus healing a blind man. Jesus
spit on his hands and rubbed the man's eyes. Suddenly, the man could see.
However, he didn't see clearly. Then, as verse 25 tells us, "his eyes were
opened, his sight was restored, and he saw everything clearly."
When I first read this passage and we discussed it in one my
classes, I thought "wait. Did Jesus just fail at healing this guy?!"
It made no sense to me. I even remember having the discussion in class that
maybe there was just spit in the guys eye and it was blurring his vision.
However, I realized a little later that I AM THAT THE BLIND MAN.
How many times has God revealed something to me and I see
it, but I don't really see it. How many times has He said,
"Erin. Stop being a brat and apologize to that person" and I convince
myself that it isn't really necessary?
Or how many times has God told me that I need to give up my
pride and I ignore it and think "No no. I can do this on my
own?"
This passages is showing us that we are constantly being
worked on by God. Our relationship with Him isn't one that comes down to a
quick fix. Right now, I'm at the "rubbing the eyes a second time"
stage.
It's highly uncomfortable. But by the end of this, I'll be
able to see things clearly.
That is, until The Lord decides to pick something else of
mine that needs some reworking :)
If you're in this stage, be encouraged and persevere. If you
don't feel like you're in this stage, be praying for 2 things. First, pray that
God would reveal something of yours that needs surrendered over to him. Next,
pray that during that time, He would give you the strength and courage to
completely surrender it so you can see clearly.
