Monday, January 27, 2014

Uncertain yet faithful

It's been almost 3 months since I last blogged and I feel like it's now gotten to that point where it would almost be impossible to fill you on everything that has happened in the last few months. I'll try my best:
  •  I survived finals and ended up making Dean's List for the Fall semester
  • I had a great Christmas filled with lots and lots of family time
  • I started my last Spring semester by taking 16 hours
  • I finished 2013 on a high note and I'm planning on 2014 being a year filled with surprises, uncertainty, and adventures and I'm so excited.
  • If you wanna know a play by play of 2013, creep on my facebook or just ask me :)
I was going to tell yall about how I actually kept my New Year Resolution in 2013 until I realized that I was thinking of the resolution from 2012!! Embarrassing. However, at the beginning of 2012, I made this post and decided that I would no longer be a people pleaser but I would be a Christ pleaser. While most of the time, being a Christ pleaser lines up with pleasing those that I love, at times it can be a little difficult.
Now, two years later, I can honestly say that I'm getting better at this and I'm so proud of myself for it.

Now for this year. I feel like 2014 (how weird is that to say?) is going to be a fun, stressful, new, patience-testing, and exciting year. I'm to the point in my life where I have to make some incredibly huge decisions that could alter my whole life. I have only this semester, summer school, and next Fall semester left at Baylor and then I'm forced into the real world. A world full of uncertainty. A world full of opportunities to put to use everything I learned in my classes. A world full of people yearning to know of the love of Christ. But do I know what this world looks like? 

Not in the slightest.

I have no clue where I'll be. Maybe I'll be in Dallas in seminary. Maybe I'll find a job and I'll be working full time. Maybe I'll decide to backpack through Europe. Though if you know me, you know I'm not the backpacking through Europe type. Maybe I'll get married and be the perfect trophy wife. Totally kidding. My point is, I have no clue where I'll be or what I'll be doing. This is the first time in my life that I don't have a plan. A year from now, I have absolutely no clue what will be going on. At this point, the thought of that freaks me smooth out. I like a plan. I like routine. I like KNOWING. However, I love Christ more. That's why I'm trying my best to cling to Christ and trust in His plan for my life. His plan is greater than anything I could ever imagine (see Ephesians 3:20). I'm trying my hardest to put my own fears and uncertainties aside to listen to Him about what to do with my life, where to do it, and who to live that life with.

So who knows what 2014 will bring? All I know is that while I'm figuring things out, I have Christ leading the way so I'm good to go.